Friday, March 14, 2008

Something's not right

All day today I've had this weird feeling that something was not right. I felt like something was just off. I can't explain but deep in my heart something is missing. Something is wrong. I can't quite put my finger on it but something is different. At lunch today there was just a silence over me. I didn't want to speak. I didn't want to share. I just wanted to be still. Even now I wish I were at home to crawl into my bed and cry out to God. In my heart and my mind I'm praying. I may not be able to yell like I want to because I'm working but please believe that I will be crying my little heart out to God as soon as I get to my car. In worship, in prayer, in the spirit, and in any way that He asks me to. I will put Him first. I will worship him.

Now I'm thinking it should always be like this. Why is today so special? Because I feel like it. God is calling me to give Him my all every day, every minute and every sec. It's not difficult.

My Prayer

Dear Lord,

I want to want you. I want to need you. I want to desire you. I want to long for you. I want to just admire you. I want to learn how to love you the way that you've called me to love you. I want to love you so much that my desires are completely lined up with your desires for me. I want you to be pleased with me. I want you to tell me that I have done what it is that you have asked of me. I want to let you in. Lord do a new and wonderful work in me or allow me to finally see the work you've been trying to do in me. Lord I love you and I thank you. You are so amazing Lord. You deserve all the glory and honor. Praises to your name.

In Jesus Name I pray,


Amen

All I can say is that I believe.

I love you all!!!

Amber