Friday, April 25, 2008

Always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth . 2 Tim 3:7

I don't want to be that person who seeks out knowledge and truth but ignores the truth right in front of his or her face. They can quote scripture like no other but honestly has no application of the word or understanding of it in their life. I want to acknowledge the truth, which is Jesus Christ at all times. I want to really see the goodness that exists. I want to know what it is I'm called to. I want to experience all that there is for me to experience. I want to love beyond my capability, allowing God's love to just flow from me into the lives of others. I don't want to merely know how to control anger yet nag my husband and discipline my children out of spite and cop attitudes with my friends and family. I don't want to be the evil one that no one can tell anything because of the possible reaction or judgement. I don't want to understand the complete function of marriage and all that it can offer and never really experience it's pure goodness. I want to be so Sold Out for you that I just live without worry or regret but I refuse to let the enemy torment me or steal my joy. I want to know how to really, I mean really be OK with being single. I want to enjoy my life. I want to know what it means to love me and see me the way that God does. I want to know. I want to.

So today I declare I will no longer be a lover of knowledge but a lover of truth. The wonderful truth of Jesus Christ!