Monday, September 22, 2008

Success

So I was having lunch with a good friend of mine yesterday and we were talking about our struggles and weaknesses and I shared with her my fear of being successful. I know to some of you that might sound really weird like why are you afraid of succeeding? Why are you afraid to be all that you can be? Why are you afraid that you might accomplish something in life? Well my friend was telling me that she has another friend who has the same fear. She said this friend gets physically sick whenever they think about being successful. Wow the thought that your fear could make you sick, that's deep. Anyways, she asked me what is it that scares me and at first I didn't know. I sat blank for a second and the only thing that I could come up with was that I might do good. LOL. Wow I'm afraid of trying because I might do well, or maybe it's because I might do well or try hard and not even come close to hitting the mark. Maybe that's it. Aha...maybe I am afraid of trying and not succeeding so when I envision success it's of me not obtaining it it's of me losing it.

Man I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I mean I want to be successful. I want to achieve my dreams and fulfill God's will but I'll be honest I am afraid. I'm afraid to step out on faith and try to do God's will. Partially because I know it's going to be hard work. I am not against working. I guess since my dreams and desires are so great the work load seems to be overwhelming right now. Hmmmm What are you afraid of and why?

Some scriptures that I am using to help me,

Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?

Psalm 27:3 Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

Psalm 34:4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.

Psalm 34:9 Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing.

Psalm 46:2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

Psalm 49:5 Why should I fear when evil days come, when wicked deceivers surround me-

Psalm 61:5 For you have heard my vows, O God; you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.

I think God is saying it is ok to be fearful and doubt but do not stay in that place. Take that emotion or feeling and turn it into something else. Turn that terrifying fear into a fear or reverence for and of God. Take assurance that the Lord has heard your petition and know that He is listening and moving. He has a plan and in His he does the actions necessary to get you to your destiny. So I don't know about whoever is reading this blog but I know that me personally. I know that I need to fear God and obey Him. I need to love Him and respect Him. I need to seek to do His will above my own. I don't know about you but fear cannot paralyze me I need to use it as a catalyst and as confirmation. I should do more work to prove my faith is actually living. So let's rise up against fear. I ain't afraid of no fear...lol...no but seriously why fear FEAR when you can fear God? Think about it...no stop...and think about it. Why fear fear? I'll fear God. That's way easier and less confusing...I'm not sitting around like...fear...hmmm..aahhh...it's intangible.

God is the almighty and full of power. He gives me power not fear. I serve God, not fear. Alright Success here I come!